Silly Me.

Okay. I admit it. You’re the guy all my love quotes are about. You’re the one I am thinking right now. Cause I just really fall on you,maybe. Eventhough I dont even know about your feeling on me, I still fall on you, perhaps. But, sometimes I thougt that you just didn’t want to be alone. You doesn’t even care about me. Or maybe, maybe I am just too good for your ego. Or, or maybe I made you feel better about your miserable life but you didn’t want me. Cause, as far as I see, I am not the girl on your phrase that you’ve read about.
Then this stuff made me sick all the time. Fallin love is a foolish thing to do. I just feel like I’m full of shit, like I am trying to be somethin’ I am not. But then I look at you, and I am home. I can’t always deny it. You’re the reason of butterflies-crumbled on my stomach. I can’t be just friend with you. It feels like there’s something wrong when I see you with your other girls in friend areas, maybe. I mentally killed my self a hudred times when I think about this. One time I think that I really wanna confess this feeling to you but my brain already give me your answer. There are two possibilities: you’ll smile like an idiot or you’ll just said “don’t be dumb, Pumpkin.” . Holy moly, my oh my. You’re the apples of my eyes.
They said, We need to find someone that isn’t afraid to admit they miss you. Someone that knows you not perfect but treats you as you are. Someone who couldn’t imagine losing you. Someone who gives you their heart to you completely. Someone who says “I love you” and prove it. Last but not at least someone who wouldn’t mind waking up to you in the morning, seeing your wrinkles and the grey hair but still in love with you all over again.
But how come that people is you? I’m afraid that I am expecting too much to ask you loves somebody like me.
“Pengharapan itu menyakitkan”
I’ll tell you what kind of feeling that scared me off. Here we go. One day you left me at the edge of cliff. You were supposed fall with me. We were supposed fall together. But when it came time for us to fall, i took a step closer to the edge, getting ready, and you took a step back, unsure, confused. You left me at the edge falling alone, falling for you alone, falling in love with something that wasn’t falling in love with me.

Every girls has a heart, her hearts is a secret garden and the walls are very high.And nobody know it even herself. Umm everyone said that she deserves the best, but if the best isn’t you She doesn’t want it. She should not let you in. What if i let you have my heart and you leave it? Broke it? Oh wait, you can’t broke a broken heart, lucky me. But then I understand it, I am just waiting to see who is going to walk out of my life next. Umm, enough for today, see ya. Soon.

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