Dear ex. Watch out, I show you what you've lost about.

I was doing so well without you. It started to hurt less and less each day. I was actually getting somewhere. I stopped missing you. But then my mind wandered to the times that we would be sitting at a red light, in complete silence, and you would stare at me until I had to tell you that the light turned green, and you would blush because you didn’t think that I noticed the way that you looked at me. And then I thought of the time you memorized every line from my favorite movie, because you knew how happy it would make me. And before I could stop myself, I started going through old pictures of us, seeing how happy I was, how happy YOU made me. And then I realized, I never stopped missing you in the first place.

“Discover your self-worth. Perhaps the most important part of reinventing yourself is discovering who you are as an individual. Sometimes ugly things are said in a break-up and you’ll take a lot of it to heart. However, if you discover who you truly are, these hurtful phrases will soon fade away. Ways to discover your self-worth include: Writing down your good qualities, Focusing in on them, Write down the things you feel makes you a good partner, Repeat them to yourself daily, Write down what you want to change about yourself, Start tackling them.”
—  8 Tips for Reinventing Yourself After a Break up

But, duuuhhhh “He was a chapter of my life I didn’t want to be over.”. I don't even understand about this patetic love story of mine. I am good, but not an angel. I do sin, but I am not the devil. I am just a small girl in a big world trying to find someone to love. And I just realized shit : The more you care the more you've to lose. Gotcha.

Enough for today, The Hurt is Going to Scream. Adios senorita.  

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